oNCE in a Blue Moon Visits..

Hey hey..yes, this place look pretty familiar..used to be here everyday!! Yea, paying a visit to my own blog is what i'm talking about. Heh. Talk about laziness, more like it.. I'm now officially a lame bummer, equivalent to being even lazier than a beggar on the street. :P Its sad huh..practically forcing myself to crawl out of bed, look horendous with my morning hair-do, and making myself up for lunch, come back and return to my bed of pillows. Well, I do hook up with a book or mag, or play tickles with my pooch, or resort to surfing for jobs..But frankly, i enjoy these things. I've been an extremely different me lately..Its scaring me a little, seeing that i'm home more than usual...seeing this happening, Malaysia should be facing a change of climate!!

Oh well, besides my present situation, which i'm quite happily contented about, I'm pretty much stuck in relationship problems.. Though they've got nothing to do with me, i think my previous blog entry is about this too..How sad huh?? I mean, i swear, that there's a fix month for break ups to happen man. Its like becoming a trend or something!! The root of the problem is always hard to accept, or one tries to blame the other, or one tries to hide the truth. What's the problem guys? In the first place, be certain of yourself, your intentions, your trust, your limits and your responsibility over your problems!! It sounds simple in words actually, and pardon me, i don't have the right to advise. SO what happens when I am a friend of both sides? What happens when i listen to 2 different stories? Play dumb and listen obediently? Pretend that i'm stupid and act blur so that they'll just give up after a while talking to me? What do i do?

Its not a pleasant feeling when one tries to dig information and the other keeps denying the facts..and the worst thing is, i feel their sorrows, i feel their bitterness and anger growing every time they spill out an extra word. And i'm there, repeating myself over and over again, like rehearsing a script or something. Don't get me wrong, its what i study..the nature of human beings..Its just funny seeing myself talking like that..And the best finale, they talk themselves out of it, and thank me for being there!! Its a pretty unique process huh.. I just need to say a certain script, and then they answer their own questions, and i nod, and nod, and then they thank me. Cool!! But at the end of it, i feel good..the mere fact that i was there to see them grow stronger and relieved.

Hence, break ups aren't the worst things that can happen..try being in the shoes of an unfathered child, try raising up a drug addict, be a beggar on the street of Chow Kit, be forced into prostitution and contract AIDS, be an abuser to your wife, sell drugs and be a drug lord, smuggle in diamonds, be caught and sent to jail for sodomy, get betrayed by your bestfriend because of money.. a hundred and million things out there are worse than a simple break up. Love, above all mentioned conquers it all, since people do take it badly. I'm glad, happy and contented with my loved one, but with all due respect, i'd like to say this to whoever who's going through this turmoil, be the happy person you wanna be before trying to make your partner happy. Find your worth before questioning your worth in someone elses life!!

Hmmrrmm..my pillows are just so tempting to huggggg now!!!!! Ok that's it. Its Bedtime!!!

My thought for The dayyyyyy....

Greetingz my planetiers.. nehoos, yes, its been eons. My bad. But hey, I've got loads of shitz to do, which i've not done yet. So yea, good question, what the heck have I been doing? Errr...other shitz to do. hehe.. Well, a good update would be informing you ppl that i'm down to my last semester of my degree course, blabla..and hip hip hooray!!! I see hope down this eeerrie tunnel..(speaking metaphorically if u didn't know..) and currently sitted my lazy bum blogging smack in the middle of Melbourne city.. how COOL is that?? really..its not. well, my so called break, having a book on my lap, trying so hard to believe that women can juggle 2 things at one time.. (gives a sneer)

Oh well, back to what i really want to say. Basically, i've been hearing news from random people that this is a bad year indeed..for most Pigs and dogs, and i dunno what else, we've been encountering countless problems ever since this new year started. Most of it revolves around R-E-L-A-T-I-O-N-S-H-I-P-S. Who agrees with me? Just in one week, 3 friends of mine just either broke up or are having a time-Off.. well, bullshit to such a word. Seriously, when a guy just says he needs time off becuase of his career build-up, that's when you shud start reading between the lines. So, you mean I'm in the fucking way now? Am i at your damn workplace everyday? DO i annoy the shit out of you everytime ur out with ur colleagues? Do i crave for attention when i don't get any? Why the fuck do you need time when u clearly have the time in the WORLD to work your way up? Isn't it better when u come home knowing you've got food to eat rather than eating out alone? or trying to get someone out to ear with you? its so silly, really. (that's a lure of course) Goodness me, when u're a 22 y/o young adult i guess these kinda things do evolve in time right? I'm presuming ppl reading this are certified matured individuals who can think straight. I'm sorry, being blunt is my thing. Its just that i can't stand men, Who think they're all that when they're clearly, solely either insecure or just bored of women. Look, JUST BE FRANK. You want us or NOT? don't get us all paranoid and worried.. don't think that when u get the emotion running through our heads, its fun, cause you men, will suffer the consequences.

Same goes with those who aren't sure of their other half. Being together for years and years doesn't signify marriage. And please... do you even see youself growing? Its just sad to realize after say 5 years together, you realize that maybe he's not really your type. Maybe he doesn't deserve me, or maybe i should open up my options.. I don't blame u girl, but what ever you do, girls should have the right to choose their happiness. Uh-Huh..as unfair as it may seem, its only very gentleman of you guys to do that, after all that you've put us through.. we only ask of this. I just think that people who were in it, and fell out of it, this is your only chance to get yourself back together. He may be a bitch to you, so can you. Or guys, if she's been a bad cunt lately, (I'm sorry for my indecent language) you know you should get a better one. U know what i mean. I just wished HITCH did exist. I'm not an expert myself but i do know how much i need to work to make a whole relationship work out well.. my secret, a pair needs a balance. You're lazy, he should be fucking hard working, you're the listener, he's the speaker..and vice versa..nvr the same at any time, he's a pig, you're the maid..you're the window shopper, he's the buyer.. :) stuff like that. Its hell lot worse when Long distance hits you. But i think all in all, it has taught me what you need and don't need when he's around or not around. I"m just really deep in my thoughts right now. excuse me... i need foodd...tata.

Neeed excitement!!!

I'm lag of excitement in my life right now. Where's the activity? there was suppose to be some, but errr...none. Or rather, only a few. Now even my body's reacting to it. Feeling lethargic is the consequence, thus going out for so-called activity is not possible. A bigggggg 'sighhhhh'... I"m not talking about parties, or clubs, i'm talking about get togethers...family, i've settled them...friends, partly. I guess being pushy isn't right, just be there i suppose. Ok, what am i saying, when Jo comes back, such thoughts would cease to exist...so basically, my point in writing this blog is pointless...hahahahah...see how much time i've got to spare??

U know, i don't have to go to the gym to gain muscles...i've found the cheapest way of gaining muscles to your arms!!!! Try carrying a 17 pound baby up and down for 10 times.. I bet those muscles are definitely forming!!! Yea, my nephew..he's super adorable, at the same time, he thinks he's big enough to walk, so he tries to walk with his puny feet, kicking air and bending those legs..so haha, we're both exercising. how convenient, right at the comfort of your home. I"m not liking it ok. He's heavvvyyy... and my, his head, is almost as heavy as his body...hahahah. kidding..but man, u should see him for yourself...ahahh...u feel like kicking him like a ball....wicked me huh?

What to dododoooooooo tonighttttttttttttttttttttttttttt???????????????????????????????? stay home and grow fungus? stay home and bake cake? or stay home and do gardening? i'd rather stay home and look stoned..so i'll make my parents think that somethings wrong with me, so they'll ask me to go out and have fresh air...hahaha...home air cleaner than outside air la...i'm crappy. bye!

hot but sweeeettt...

Its home i'm talking about!! I"m finally back..just a few days ago i couldn't stop myself from picturing how home would feel like...and now, it feels swwweeettt... Hhehe.. its still slow for me, its really hot..hate all that sweaty feeling you get..like your armpits start to stick to your body, and your face start to produce enough oil to look like 'orang minyak'... tough, but its ok..all for the sake of the people i miss.. my nephew is such an addiction!!! damn!! he's super cute! I reckon, he'll be someone tough and really naughty when he grows up..but then again, all boys are like that. wanna see some adorable pics?? check out my site at cherrycharmz.multiply.com...but haven't uploaded them..if you really have nothing to do, go have a peep at it..i've got other chickadees and hunkadees too, if you wanna.

Well, haven't been out much, but enough to feel satisfied for now..only waiting for my baby to come back.Then it'll be heaven for me...WoooHoo!! ok, gotta go now..lAZY is the WorD for today.

paperssss!!

Evrydaystarstruckboredom

Shiieett..i left my old tag board in my last template...Yea, thanx to my illiterate knowledge on HTML stuff..now i don't have a taggie..someone, please help...nways, exam has been super-duper mind-blowing..er, not good k.. Just have two more to go and I'm a free birrrrdddd!!! I've to learn about animals..ANIMALS you know!!! how dead boring is that???!!!! aahh..i'm gonna trash my nights away with constant reading..that's what i'll do. Well, can't say much for now. I miss home even more now. Leaving preeetttyyy soon...hahahaha...yayay!!!! ok, back to the books for now!!! tata!

For my sweetheart...

-Come Back-

Those were the days of laughter
We pick pillow fights and showers
What deemed impossible to be
Was solitude to me
My dreams were filled with flowers and kisses
Thrown to me and smelled like sweet peaches
What's left is to hope again
Never again to feel pain
Come back sweet baby of mine
All i want is to feel fine
I don't want you to be fantasy
Hugs, kisses and tough are reality
Where have i gone worng, I wonder
The love I felt so deep, now I ponder
Will it live again and stay?
All these i can only pray
Come back sweet baby of mine
Make the lights shine
So i could see and be me
And know that i'm free
Every night turns to morn
So a new days is born
What's new to come, I hum
Is you and me we become
'Be patient' you said and pleaded
Never was I patient I dreaded
But God spoke and said the same
Guess impulsitivity is to blame
Come back sweet baby of mine
Don't you want what's yours mine?
Cause you have me for life
Always and for life.

I love you baby, if this is what it takes, bring it on...

counting the dayz...

yes, i'm counting the days till i'm home. Everyone says there ain't much to look forward to back home but its still gonna be my home sweet home. I'm never done reading..you know once i attended this sppeeeed reading course..where u're suppose to learn to read and understand things faster, hmm...guess i've lost that talent..or skill rather.. hehehe!

Ever since i've moved out, i've never ever walked my legs out as much as i've been walking these past 2 weeks.. simply because i don't drive a darn wrecked up looking junk car, no, not a car, some motor running with wheels, and i guess i could just manage my life here with two legs and a bus..you know, when i leave, one thing i'll miss is the buses here..you don't see a speck of dirt, you don't see stupid so-called grafitti, you don't sit next to perverts who just have nothing else better to do but stare at breasts and asses while u stand on the bus..and yea, you get a " hey, how are you" and "have a nice day" service from bus drivers.. polite is what i call it. Guess someone could at least start spreading friendliness around people of Malaysia... But then again, who would think ur just being nice? U'd be labeled some siau lang back home.. try it to some stranger..oh actually, better not. being nice to someone is just isn't safe anymore. Its just calling for trouble.

I'm just dreading to see unwanted people of the society when i get back. Not that they are any significant in my life, but the mere fact that it really disappoints you to see how morally demented some individuals are. Sara and i were just pondering on what Malaysia would feel like again.. yea, barely 6 months away but i'm feeling its been eons. My friends would know who i'm referring to relative to what i said..We are not flamboyant about ourselves or our friends closest to us, we just gotta accept the obvious right?

Nways, something extremely hilarious happened yesterday..ok, don't mean to be rude or something, but we were doing our groceries yesterday in Foodland..and we saw this weird looking person walking by. that person was old i reckon by the hair colour, it was greyish, whitish..and really, he looks like an ordinary man..except for a few things.. hahaha...he had breasts and moustache together!!! now, is that man or woman?? i don't know!!! but i guess she's a woman after all..only after we heard her speak..hahhahahahahahaha!!!!! You just had to be there to see for urself!!! to see the look on our faces!!!! yea, we get some weird looking humans here too..

I'm missing my baby..he's not here, and he's a bit depressed. Would God send 'little princess' there for me? Well, i guess everyone falls into depression quite often..he's a strong boy, and i know being weak only makes us stronger..Miss C wants to go home and study now..Miss C wants to eat too...steaks on the wayyyyy!!!! YuMMy...tata world!!