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Monday, August 30, 2004

You feel the same???

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis"
It is when u stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about youself that u didn't know and may not like. U start feeling insecure and wonder where u will be in a year or two but then get scared because u barely know where u are now..

U start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that u thought u were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people u have ever met, and the people u have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.

What u don't recognise is that they are realising that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insecure, but that they are as confused as U!!! U look at ur job..and it is not even close to what u thought u would be doing, or maybe u are looking for a job and realizing that u are going to have to start at bottom and that scares u.. ur opinions have gotten stronger.

U see what others are doing and find urself judging more than usual because suddenly u realise that u have certain boundaries in ur life and are constantly adding things to ur list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, u are insecure and then the next, secure.. U laugh and cry with the greatest force of ur life.

U feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and u try and cling on the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where u are or move forward!!!

U get ur heart broken and wonder how someone u loved could do such damage to u.... or u lie in bed and wonder why u can't meet anyone decent enough that u want to get to know better. Or maybe u love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why u are doing this because u know that u aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.

U go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with ur friends about the same topics because u cannot seem to make a decision. U worry about studies, money, the future and making a life for urself.... and while winning the race would be great, right now u'd just like to be a contender!!

What u may not realise is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.. Send this to ur twenty something friends..maybe it will help someone feel like that aren't alone in their state of confusion..

p/s: hey peeps, got that from an email..thought i'd share it with some of you.. well, certainly this happens in everyone of us, just that we never really brought this up amongst us.. well, here it is. Something beneath our very selves been revealed. Certainly i don't disagree about this 'dilemma' because it happens every single day but yet, we manage to pull through. But, to what extent has this pulling through got to go? don't we wanna be in a state of certainty? Where nothing troubles us, where money isn't the problem, when work gives us great satisfaction?.. but at the end of the day..its the struggling that matters i guess. I do go through this everytime and its hard.. but with God's help, i'm now right where i'm suppose to be. Well, for now. not sure bout the future. We all can pull through only if we want to progress. So friends, i guess this article is an awakening to some of us. Simple yet it impacts you.

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